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[tirinian]

Ok, I have been working pretty much flat out on Arcadia, with occasional breaks for actual work for work, and not much else. Including the first honest-to-god all nighter I've pulled in I don't know how many years. Still, I think it's going well, and the players seem to be enjoying it, so that's all good. I am hopeful they'll be telling stories about it for a while to come. Although I'm not sure if I'll be hearing those stories - the game is ridiculously full of first-time players, and even among the fogies, there's only one or two that I socialize with much outside of the guild.

With Germany graduated and skuffle gone, there's really not any undergrads I socialize with outside of the guild, either. CPB occasionally, but he got waitlisted for time constraints (as did mjperson, sadly, 'cause it would have been really nice to see him play something again). 4th WAR has been awesome about letting me crash there when I've wanted/needed to crash on campus, and they have been similarly awesome about feeding the gm team (until our great game mommies took over when game started), but while I feel like most everyone there is happy to see me and chat when I show up, without Germany there's no one who really counts as a *reason* for me to show up and hang out, unless I'm picking up CPB to go to a play.

I'm sure this is where pelkofer or maverickseraph or someone thinks I should just accept that it's time to stop trying to hang out with kids who weren't born when I started playing these crazy games, and I'm sure there's some truth in that. I'm never really quite sure why the kids actually continue to put up with me crashing their fun. But it *is* fun, and I like it enough/it gets me going enough that I pull all nighters for it, and I can't think what I could possibly do instead that would energize me the same way.

Anyway, the thing this was originally going to be about is that this round of sleep dep has been extreme enough, compared to anything I've done in ages, that I've been oddly self-aware about the level to which it is actually impairing me. It is strange to think "you know, I could solve that if I was more awake, but I'm not", and I don't remember ever really hitting that state back when I did pull all nighters frequently. I wonder if it's an actual change, or just something I'm more aware of now for some reason. And now, I'm going to go to bed and try to get some sleep before work tomorrow, and tomorrow we'll be half-way through.

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Certainly it's a necessary skill for us astronomers... ;-)