tirinian

And I really have nothing to say that I haven't said.

Fourteen is about as long as I knew him - ~1993 to ~2008.

It still hurts if I go and poke it (like now), but it pretty much never surprise hurts anymore.

I guess that's healed, then?

I still wish he was still here, though. :-(

I'm technically writing this a few hours early, but Killbot and I walked past Lovell on our walk tonight, so I'm writing it now. I might not post it until after midnight, or tomorrow, we'll see.

I told Killbot it didn't hurt as much as it would have five years ago, when he worried at me, and that's true. But that's not the same as it doesn't hurt. I've been thinking about it again the last few days. I'm pretty sure I'm never going to be able to pay that much attention to a Presidential Election again, 'cause it's always going to be about my marker of the anniversary. (It's also a day after Errol's birthday, which is always a reminder, but somehow not as painful of one.) But I go weeks at a time without thinking about it now.

I was near tears when one of the presents he'd given me wore out earlier in the year, though. And keep taking breaks writing this 'cause I'm near tears again.

You'd be 45 now, 'nJ. Solidly middle aged. I wish I'd gotten to see that happen.

I wish you'd gotten to see that happen.

Work was ok, I failed at gym entirely, and was only technically in compliance with diet. But theater was good!

Monday: Torino canceled, think I just lazed about?
Tuesday: Hamilton! It really is as good as people say. As I remarked to plitwack on the way out, the only thing I can think of to compare it to is seeing Les Miz for the first time. I could nitpick (I don't think the second act is as strong as the first, for instance), but I'm not going to. Ten days of game.
Wednesday: The Play That Goes Wrong! About as pure a Farce as I've ever seen. There is no attempt at all at meaning, but it's hilarious. You should not actually see it before Hamilton, but if you get a chance, it's worth seeing. (Fair warning: laura47 was annoyed with some of the gender/sexuality tropes in the second act. While I concede her point that they're problematic, they did not make the play as a whole less funny to me.) 9.5 days of game before dying in a murder mystery.
Thursday: Warhammer. We made good progress on dealing with the politics of the Skaven plot, and a little progess on the Korn cultists.
Friday: Nothing. Bought comics and hung around.
Saturday: Dragon run! Various things Cai Wen had been meaning to get around to but hadn't, triggered by a time-warping magic item.
Sunday: Nothing at all. Played a bunch of Civ 6.

Well, LARP season seems to have killed updating pretty thoroughly, between weekends at games and weekends where I have to finish PELs. But I've recently been reminded that I do like having this record to look at, so maybe I'll try and start it up again. Not going to do a full recitation of this week or anything, but what two months have been like:

Diet is a disaster, and I'm super fat, and need to get that back under control. Gym is barely hanging in there, but not good. Work is... super slow, but not actually that bad? My bosses are in the middle of a two month trial, and there just doesn't seem to be that much for me to do. At least, I don't feel like I'm *behind* so much as I feel like I'm *not doing much*. We'll see if I can get that beaten into shape soon.

I haven't seen much... I'm not sure I've been to a movie in two months, and I'm pretty sure the only theater was Kiss of the Spider Woman at the Lyric. I liked that one more than the Speakeasy one I saw a while ago - I think partly the actors were younger, and looked more the age of the characters? Not sure exactly, but it just worked better. It does have a certain '80's vibe to the handling of the gay character/relationship that I found more irritating this time, though. Call it 8.5 days of game before getting kissed by the Spider Woman. Have seen a couple of episodes of the new Dr. Who, and think she's very Doctor-y. And there's like four shows coming up in the next two weeks or so, including Hamilton, so I'll fix the lack of theater soon.

I haven't read much in the way of actual books, either, but I rediscovered ps238 as a webcomic, and binged the whole thing. I really enjoyed it as a comic book, but think it loses something in binging. It was still good enough that I reread it all, but it didn't seem to have quite the magic it had before. Possibly it's also that more people have done the same sort of thing since, possibly it's just that the pacing is slightly off somehow. I did think that the strips done as a pure webcomic, rather than pages of the comicbook posted to the web, worked better, and will keep reading it, although it seems to update very unreliably. Also binged through The Young Protectors, Engaging the Enemy, which I have had in queue for at least a couple years, and quite liked, and will read the sequel series sometime soon.

There's been a bunch of tabletop gaming, too, but I'm not going to try and figure out where that left off and what's happened in each of the runs since the last time I updated. So maybe I'll call this there, and start trying to do real-er updates again next week.

Let's see...

Monday, Germany canceled our plans for Saturday and everyone bailed on board game night. And then I was at work until 3 in the morning anyway.
Tuesday was fine, Auria.
Wednesday my date-like dinner plan was... ok, but no real sparks.
Thursday the sophisticate canceled on coming over for a massage at the last minute.
Friday was dinner with Killbot, and then not-quite-a-fight with killbot about PK.
Saturday I discovered my favorite wraps place in Davis has apparently closed.
Sunday ex-coworker canceled on coming over for a massage. Though there was Chicken, which was good.

Let's just say I'm pretty grumpy right now.

Week before was better, jdbakermn and uhm... geskekelud's high priest? he must have a ljname, right? ... were in town for the Ingress Anomaly, so there was dinner plans and lunch plans around that. Played a Guild game written by The Founder and his daughter (who's currently on the HC), which was goofy and SUPER old-school, but kinda fun. Went to the gateway's housewarming and was amused I at least knew almost everyone, although none of them were super close. But saw not-justom for the first time in like a year, so that was good. (And then ran into him again at MYP buying comics this week.) Warhammer finally figured out what the good-guy-half of the last plot is, and had an amusing dungeon crawl bit. Torino successfully kept any gods from getting killed, if not catching the wizard of doom, and Auria happened.

Work was slow in general, gym has been lame, diet has been weak, and ... I feel like there's a fourth thing I regularly comment on, but forget what it is.

Work is ok. Mostly focused on getting ready for tomorrow's trial, which has happened, but other stuff as been ignored as a result. Gym is weak and diet is terrible.

CPAP machine is... definitely helpful, but weirdly makes me more aware of how tired I am? It's like I made it from exhausted to just tired, and that's... better, but not actually good. I'm getting better at sleeping with it on, though, so maybe it will continue to improve?

Other stuff:

Monday: Torino! Mostly a big fight, that turned out to be a distraction for the big fight we have to run to next week. Fortunately, you recover from fights Darn Quick in Champions, so we'll probably be fine by the time we get there, as long as we don't tire ourselves out moving.
Tuesday: Auria. A bunch of puttering, at the son of an old NPC who apparently had a fight with his dad, but which resulted in firstfrost taking him under her wing and throwing a coup for next run.
Wednesday: Daredevil came over for a massage, for the first time in ages.
Thursday: Warhammer. Reported our possible progress to the Boss, and figured out we can actually track skavin sigils, if slowly and with danger.
Friday: Nothing, I don't think? Should have been a Rome meeting, but that appears to be dying. We'll see if ... Hrm, I totally don't have a nickname for him, I think. I suppose estick will have to do. We'll see if estick kicks it into gear again.
Saturday: Got myself a massage, then some catchup work at work, then board games at the Police Chief's place.
Sunday: Lunch and Antman and the Wasp with Germany, then some work, then Chicken at Kye's, then Birthday Ice Cream at desireearmfeldt's, which I mostly spent hanging out with fireworksboi. Quite liked Antman and the Wasp. Going to give it an 8.5 days of game before getting lost in the quantum realm, although mostly that's for Fun, rather than for Good.

I dunno what I've been doing that I haven't made time for this recently. There was a Crossover weekend, and then two weekends of writing PELs instead of updates, I guess. The fictional recordings of what I did in game actually wind up being a lot longer than the updates I do here on what I did in my real life. Which I'm sure says something, if I thought about it, but I'm not going to very hard.

Have definitely been in a down patch generally, as well, which hasn't helped. Fortunately work has been mostly short-deadlines, and deadlines motivate me even if I'm not very energetic, so that hasn't failed entirely. Diet failed entirely for about three weeks, but have kinda-sorta gotten back on the wagon the last two weeks. Gym has been iffy, although that's partly been my trainer, not me. No massages. Saw the Wiz at the Lyric, which was ok, but not great. Perfectly reasonable production of a show I don't care for much, and the music was a little too loud and drowned out the singers in places. Hmm, that's not completely fair - I thought several of the performances/actors were quite good (tin man, aunt em/glinda, the Wiz), and the rest were all solid, but... yeah, it just didn't quite gel for me. Or maybe I just wasn't in the mood.

Saw Infinity War, quite liked that. You need to be up on the MCU in general, though, 'cause it assumes you know who everyone is and just runs with it. Need to see Deadpool2 and Solo, hopefully this week before two more weekends of LARPing.

Finished Pandemic Legacy 2. Also really good. Not sure if it was quite as good as Pandemic Legacy 1, but it's close, at least. If they come out with a 3, we are definitely all on board.

Tabletopping has been slow. Torino is spotty since twe and Jelom's second kid came along. Auria canceled the last two weeks. Warhammer is mostly on track, although I fear we burned our lead to one of the plots to do it a little damage, but not enough. Dragon is going on hiatus for two months 'cause mjperson is on the west coast for work, which will also damage Auria and put Conflux out of bounds. You'd think the extra time would give me extra energy and time to do other stuff, but... it really doesn't seem to have. Hasn't been a Blade run in a while, as I think the Police Chief isn't really sure where to go next.

I seem to have lost the ability to sleep in on the weekends, which is irksome, and means the last two Fridays I have just sort of collapsed at 8 o'clock and caught up on sleep that way. Which isn't going to work the next two weekends while I'm LARPing, but then again, I wouldn't have slept in those weekends anyway, so hopefully I'm caught up enough.

And that's the state of the tirinian for now, I guess.

Hmm, three weeks with no post. I'm just... not keeping this up the way I'd like to. Then again, I'm not really keeping most things up the way I'd like to. Possibly this is 'cause I'd like to keep too many things up, possibly this is 'cause my energy levels are low. Possibly both.

Last week I didn't update 'cause was flying back from Pittsburgh, after spending the weekend visiting the Computational Linguist, with a brief lunch with the cyberneticist. I'd never been before, so that was sort of interesting. The view when you come out of the tunnel from the airport is... quite something, and the airport is Very Impressive, if super empty. The city itself is less-run-down-than-it-used-to-be, if not quite up to Boston/DC levels of city yet. Saturday we went and visited Kentuck Knob, a Frank Lloyd Wright house, which was interesting, if not a home I'd actually want to live in. (Too cramped, I think). The view from the Knob is really something, though.

The week before was Easter Fools, which I don't think I have a great reason for not updating on?

Work has been busy, and I have no been on top of it. Fortunately, we officially have tomorrow off, and I have no other plans, so I can go in for at least a while and try to get on top of it a bit more. Plus remember to pay my taxes, or file for an extension, or something. I officially gave up on trying to diet this week, after it has been slowly slipping a bit more each week for a while, and will see if that helps me start over fresh tomorrow. Also failing at the gym, although at least some of that is my trainer's unavailability, not mine.

Other things... algorithmancy's mother died, and several of us went to the funeral, which was harder to do than I'd expected, but I think he and psholq both appreciated it, so I'm glad we went. Various games proceed apace. Canceled a couple of massages in the last week or so 'cause I wasn't feeling up to it, which is a sign I'm *really* low on energy. Signed up for a guild game for the first time in ages, 'cause I realized at the meeting (which I missed 'cause I was in Pittsburgh) that I didn't think I had a vote 'cause I hadn't played anything in a year. I'm... not sure I would actually go out of my way to fix that, except I'm theoretically working on a ten-day, and don't want to try and run a ten-day while completely out of touch with the undergrads.

Guess that will do for an update this time, not going to try to reconstruct three weeks of evenings one-by-one.

My sleep schedule has weirdly shifted so I'm going to bed earlier and getting up earlier, often before my alarm. Don't know what's up with that, it's kind of creepy.
Gym was a failure last week. Diet is... ok. Work feels like I'm getting a fair amount of stuff done, but somehow also like I'm not working enough, not sure what's going on there. Other stuff:

Monday: Pandemic Legacy, Season 2! We lost-then-won May, and are feeling more confident after getting some helpful rules additions.
Tuesday: Snow Day! No Auria, didn't even leave the house. Did work-from-home more than I usually do for a snow day, that might be part of why I feel like I got enough done this week.
Wednesday: Black Panther (second time) with brilit. I still like and and am still not blown away. I do wish the gorilla tribe leader had another line or two the last time he shows up, though.
Thursday: Just buying comics and dinner, I think?
Friday: Rome GM meeting. Went fairly well. Game is shaping up reasonably, although I'm kinda thinking it needs a de-mechanics-pass.
Saturday: Went and bought clothes for Port Katherine, then the Sophisticate came over for a massage, then over to Germany's for a St. Pat's day party, which I mostly spent talking to the Police Chief.
Sunday: D&D: The Blade. Finished running White Plume Mountain (I missed the run where they started it.) It was a fun old fashioned dungeon crawl, if not much like a modern game at all.

Ugh. It's been a month since I updated.
First Sunday I missed was the day I decided to quit Witchwood, and I was busy sulking.
Second Sunday I missed I was in DC and it was a pain to get a computer.
Third Sunday I missed was the end of Intercon and I was wiped out.
This was going to be the first weekend of the guild ten-day, so i would have also been hosed, but it punted due to insufficient apps. Which is... sad for the guild, but gave me a gloriously free weekend this weekend, so that was nice.

Not going to try to do a day-by-day thing. Work is going ok. Diet is going ok. Gym is going badly. Auria is in puttery-pre-war mode. Dragon didn't happen for me. Torino... had maybe one run where we decided to go fight the Operative's boss? Pandemic Legacy 2 is about as amazing as Season 1 was. We're through the end of May, I think? Warhammer is getting more deeply into Plot stuff, which I like, although we're still kinda stumbling around saying "well, we have no plans, so we'll go do the dangerous thing and see what happens." That's all my regular stuff.

Went to my last WW feast, mostly just said good-bye to people. Went to Intercon, played what I described as "four fun characters in four ok games." Two Boffers, two "secrets and powers"-y, although one of those wasn't very much so. Two "confused people wander around getting unconfused," one SuperHeroes Stop Supervillians, and one classic-guild-style diplomatic conference-y thing. Plus helped out with Cash Castle for a bit and went to Omoira's birthday party.

Saw Waitress (the Musical). It was reasonable, moderately standard Broadway-ish, with a non-standard love plot and a non-Broadway musical style. Strangely popular, super sold out. Call it 7.5 days of game before eating a poisoned pie. Saw Black Panther - Quite liked it, and think it's in the top quarter of modern Marvel Movies, but not as blown away by it as some people. Did really like the villain, and the arguments around his motivations. Call it 9 days of game before dying in a challenge combat. Feel like I saw something else, but can't think what...

Gave a few massages - halftime and the Sophisticate and fireworksboi.

Spent a weekend in DC, mostly saw family, plus some time with ironrat and his guy, and with the English Prof. and the Doctor. Missed CBF and the Instrumentologist, and didn't even try for anyone else. I'm seriously considering trying to do a trip and not telling my sister I'm there, to just catch up with friends. :-) But not for a while.

That's where I am. What's up with you?